I posted on Instagram a month ago that I wanted to start taking more photos of other people. As a shy, painfully independent person, I often feel like if I can do something myself, why get other people involved?
For the majority of my outfit posts, it’s been me and a self-timer. I like the total creative control I have over that, but at the same time, I’m kind of over taking fancy selfies. I want to capture other people and their styles.
So I went to photographer’s meetup in my parent’s town. I immediately knew I was out of my comfort zone. Pulling out my compact Canon G7x, I felt like a child with a point and shoot.
But, I forced myself to stay (actually my boyfriend helped with forcing me to stay–causing me to reject my genes yelling at me to Irish exit).
I didn’t take that many photos, I felt clingy to the group of girls I met at first, and I was afraid to speak up or give any creative direction, the thought “you shouldn’t be here” rolling over and over in my mind.
I didn’t even want to look at the photos I took, because I felt so ashamed and stupid for even going.
But, I had to remind myself, I got out of my comfort zone. I got photos of other people. Andd it’s ok that I don’t have a mirrorless or DSLR camera, I didn’t want to invest in a camera I would be too overwhelmed with to ever use. I want to get better at this photo+video+writing craft, and sometimes you have to fail a test to get any better.
When I left my comfort zone of my tripod and living room, I immediately made my site and creative pursuits more real. And, you know, I’m not the best, but I tried, and I’m getting better. When I become a teacher in three years, I hope to pass lessons like this on–it’s ok if you fail, or feel weird or stupid, just try, that’s the only way you can go after anything.
(Special thanks to Erica (@erica_atl), Sydney (@sydcargalphoto), and Claire (@clairee__c) and my soulmate @zatcharyw for modeling! Also *disclaimer*, I saw some awesome artists work last Saturday. No one was snobby, I was most likely the biggest critic there.)